Today... cant say having conflicts... just that my views are totally different with dem... We hav skipped a lot of taxation lectures... Dun wanna skip anymore but they some how ignore my anxiety... They noe that I wan to go for lecture but 3 against 1 how do u wan me to voice it out... I dun wan the feeling that they are being force by me... But I really wan to go... My tax already so buang liao... Actually I understand their feeling that tax can actually studied by yourself but do u noe how thick and boring is that lecture notes??? I personally feels that we need to go for lecture to motivate ourselves to read thur the notes and there are so many calculations to understand... Maybe this I how I feel onli... As for FMGT project... I think we did quite badly becoz we didnt put in 100% of our efforts... Our presentation was dull and uninteresting... We can do it better but we just leave it dying... I regret for not voicing out... But at the same time I dun hav the courage... and that is y I wanna do well for my last project on hand; human com... Thou it's a IS module but I hope that we can do a good job... I hav ideas but they are not interested... After a couple of talks, they finally wan to do some abt it... No doubts, they are a bunch of nice persons but I start to feel that my tots and theirs are kinda diff... Or is it becoz I'm weirdo??? Hope that ours projects can do as well as we did in our past sems... Too confidence will just pull u down...
27/02/05 Met my buddies... I'm so touched that they fork out their precious time for me when I needed esp everyone of dem is so busy wif their work... Miss dem vy badly for the past few days... Su Wee do u noe how much I wish that you will be there too... I wanna hug u all n cried.... Been suffering alot... Salt have been rubbing my bleeding wound again and again... Feel so hurt... I see scars on my body... Found myself crying in countless nite... Lost all my focus... My drive... My smile... My mind... I going mad... Going crazy... Going bonkers... I'm tired... Mentally tired... Physically tired... Exhausted.. Whacked... Life wasnt good for me... Tell me wat should I do... I hav no clue... I tried all sorts of ways... I tried damn hard... Real hard... But I just cant... Tell me... Teach me.... I hate myself more n more... Where's my soul... This is not me... I look so scary... Damn scary... Dark and lonely... Walking aimlessly... My life is so dark... So damp...
LOVE is SOMETHING u do, SACRIFICES you make & GIVING of self
HER STORY
She's acting strong and confident She won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony Deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person She is just as fragile as any woman Her bad temper will last very shortly and She is not a revenge type She believe in LOVE and desire being LOVED However real life did disappointed her at times
