After waiting for so many days, finally my report is out... B4 i went NHC to collect the report dear dear said "u hav to tell me the result no matter wat". Thanks for standing beside me all these while dear... The doc said mine is a minor problem.. Wont affect the whole function of the heart which means no need to under mediation unless i feel any chest pain or breathless... But I still have to go back for regular check up...
19/10/05
Last night was a sweet one...
went to watch "GOAL" (btw the movie quite gd n u will be able to c beckam inside... whoohoo) wif Dear dear.. he was a bit sick last nite... caught flu and yesterday he had his fire fighting course... hav to carry heavy equipment.. fight like a fire fighter thou he's a policeman (i cant c the link at all).. he did not hav a sufficent rest coz he went back to the office on tue for some meeting n it last til quite late.. can c tat he's vy tired.. asked him y wanna watch movie since he's sick and so tired.. he replied tat he dun hav time for me.. he ought to go back for meeting tomolo (which is today).. he will be vy busy for this coming week, might hav to go back for meeting this weekend too... he's sweet.. wasnt he? all along i didnt give him a gd time.. due to the past r/s i had no confidence at all.. i become vy sensitive... doubt him... control him.. flare my temper at him... he tolerant all these... i'm sorry dear... i need some time... u are different from zhi hao... u are not him... i shouldnt treat u as his shadow... he's a nobody to me now.. i believe tat i can be a better gf... just give me some time... n after this i finally can feel ya love for me... really... no more doubting on u... u hav my trust...
brought him a adidas wrist band... he's been eyeing on this for quite long... n i secretly went back to town to buy this for him... while he was driving i put the wrist band for him... he was quite surprise.. smiling from ear to ear.. he asked me abt the night mare tat i had earlier... i said i dreamt tat he dumped me wif another gal... brutalise me... he scolded me by keep on thinking abt this topic... i wont think abt this anymore becoz i finally can feel ya feeling for me..
thanks for always being there for me... sms me to remind me to hav my lunch n dinner.. to remind me to tk my medicine.. to cover me wif ya big towel when i'm a bit drench.. thanks for all my dear..
LOVE is SOMETHING u do, SACRIFICES you make & GIVING of self
HER STORY
She's acting strong and confident She won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony Deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person She is just as fragile as any woman Her bad temper will last very shortly and She is not a revenge type She believe in LOVE and desire being LOVED However real life did disappointed her at times
