Busy busy and busy... It's onli the 2nd week of sch and i'm like ought to stay back almost eveyday to hav project discussion... but i still haven get the taste of stress yet... attend a seminar at SMU, abt stock investing and i guess it could help me with my ECD project... SMU wasnt as big as i tot... quite nice but the pl is quite confusing coz we cant really figure out the exact pl by looking at the map..
Just get to know my new class... i dun really like my class becoz it's so politics... esp when it comes to projects... but i love my project members becoz they are so fun loving... ppl like ezza (my sayang at pwc), kanthan, jun xiang(he's really vy cute) and lawrence... but our grp hav to split in some of the projects becoz it's too big... thou i hav my new grp mates but i will still miss my gals... looking forward to meet dem this sun for kbox...
had alot of problems these few days... my aunty just found out tat she got cervic cancer... she need to go for operation next week to tk out her womb... vy sad... really... my ah yi she's a nice person just tat she doesnt noe how to express it thus ppl think tat she's sacrastic. like my cousin, she feel tat my ah yi doesnt like her, finding fault wif her... she decide not to stay wif them and live with her bf... my cousin she got a super hot temper and damn stubborn... she keep on feel tat ppl are finding fault wif her and think she's rite... come on u hav to think back of all the things u done... u cant be a fav at all times... this is how a society wk... unfair, bias, stereotype... u ought to do some reflection... ah yi really dote on u... father(my uncle) oso love u lots.. even thou ya not their real children but they treat u as thier own even better den their own children... i dunnoe how to tok some sense in you becoz i noe u will be unhappy wif it... i guess onli mum can do it... i really hope tat u will go back n c ah yi... there's no overnite grudges... ya a family...
my sis, she another problem creator... it's not tat i really wan to control or scold her at all times but i really can stand her fucking attitude towards mum... u wanna convert to christian, we allow u to do so even thou u make the move first b4 telling us... we give wat u wan... ya old enough to think... y u keep on wanting to add pressure on mum... i really hate u to core when i c ya making mum cried... y ya bear to do this to her... she's not ya maid not ya atm k... ya working... stop taking money from mum... wat's the meaning of this when u cant get money from her and start to shout at her... ya making her crazy do u noe tat... i really dunnoe when u will change... trying to tok sense to u but u treat me like a fuck... dun give me a damn... everynite hog to the ph for so long... always care abt guys and guys... u can leave w/o guys isizz... ask mum to cook den in the end dun wanna eat... do u noe how rush she is when she onli got like 1/2 to prepare dinner for u and u just simply say i dun wan to eat... i'm late... dun hav the time... when scold u telling u off... u say dun eat dun eat la... wat kind of respect are u giving her... u make hercried so many times... when everyone is so worried and sad wif ah yi condition u like "it's none of my biz" happily tok on the ph for hrs... seriously i hate the way u are... stop doing this to us... give us a gd life...
watch movie wif dear last nite... he's trying hard and i noe... but i onli get to feel love when he had done sth... he's not tat kind of person who will tell u his feeling... and i need this... a word from u could let me feel tat i do stand a pl in ya heart... call me naive if u thinks tat i believe in words rather den actions... i just need some assurance... a word from ya could calm me down... i dun like to guess... i dun like to guess ya feeling towards me... guessing onli can make me hay wired... he's tired and yet he wanna watch movie wif me... b4 the show start he's falling asleep... i hold him tight realising tat i dun bear to let him go... but a word from u dear... just a word... had his dinner wif his family... i'm so nervous... vy vy nervous... when we getting off form the car, i bang the door to the other car... i hate this... vy embarassing... but i really cant make me perform well.. during the dinner my finger was shivering... i'm so nervous... he come from a nice family... united and happy... he got no pro wif his siblings... n his parents were loving... i hardly tok to his family member becoz i really dunnoe wat to say... i'm so nervous tat i keep on doing the wrong thing... so i guess i shall keep my mouth shut...
LOVE is SOMETHING u do, SACRIFICES you make & GIVING of self
HER STORY
She's acting strong and confident She won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony Deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person She is just as fragile as any woman Her bad temper will last very shortly and She is not a revenge type She believe in LOVE and desire being LOVED However real life did disappointed her at times
