I noe we cant get back anymore however i still dun buy the reason tat he gave me... but y i didnt fight for it... mb it's better for us to come into this conclusion at least both wont get hurt badly... i wont be able to provide him any happiness... from the start he alr told me tat he wont be able to spent time on me but i neglect abt this matter... now wat we are facing is this issue... he hav NO TIME... which is true... we hardly tok on the ph and we hardly meet up... but he told me tat he dun love me any more... i dun believe it... i really dun believe it... there's no clear sign showing that he dun love me any more... the "flower thingy" has reassure his feeling for me... he still hold me tightly in his arm when we went out for movie last mon... n now he told me tat he dun love me... i dun believe it...
I really miss him lots...
Today when i was on my way to sch... passing by his house... i saw his mum and his bro at the bus stop... den when i reach sch i saw his sis... y i didnt get to bump into him?? i really miss him lots... my tears start to flow when i was on the bus... all the memories start to flash back..
the ride.... the movies... the stars tat will shine brightly in his rm... his voice.. his eyes.. the warmth of his hand.. his hug...
everything... i miss everything abt him...
i miss sch yesterday and miss the impt lecture today too...it's fatty who bring me back to sch... he keep on asking me back... i hate to go back to sch in this state... everyone was like giving me this kind of stare... i noe u care abt me but i dun need this... even simon tan (MA tutor) was like keeping on staring at me during lesson... when i didnt tok it doesnt mean i'm not ok (thou today i'm really not ok)... do i hav to tok every tutorial lesson to show tat i'm fine... i'm listening... i'm paying attention... during the project meeting... everyone crowded ard me.. asking me wat happen to me... i dun wish to say... cant u get it... they force my tears to flow... lucky i got fatty to help me up... he the one who wont comment on anything... he will be there sitting down listening to me.. he ask dem not to question me any more... he accompany me the whole day... hanging ard in sch coz i dun wish to go back hm tat early... i still hav to face the reality some day... but i need time to pack myself back again... thanks fatty.. if ya not wif me today i really dunnoe how to face the pressure tat they gave me...
LOVE is SOMETHING u do, SACRIFICES you make & GIVING of self
HER STORY
She's acting strong and confident She won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony Deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person She is just as fragile as any woman Her bad temper will last very shortly and She is not a revenge type She believe in LOVE and desire being LOVED However real life did disappointed her at times
